What Happens Next?

I feel like I’m stuck in a rut right now. I finally moved out of my parents house so I could have my freedom to do what I want, when I want, and for however long I desire. But now I live with people that like to drink and party and all of that stuff. Sure I like to have a few drinks now and then, but recently it hasn’t been my shindig. I like going to parties too, but it’s mostly just to meet people and have conversations worth remembering. Into high school I got into that scene. I drank, smoked, partied, and had a lot of memories worth losing. I’m over that now. I want to get away from that life. I want to actually do fun things.

Fun things for me:

• Movies
• Music
• Adventures
• Cuddling
• Long Drives
• Anything to do with food
• Hikes
• Skateboarding

I don’t know. There must be more, but I’m having trouble thinking of things. I really just like being weird and laughing. Then I find myself with a problem. My close friends all fucking love to party and drink and smoke. So what the fuck am I supposed to do? I love these guys but we don’t have the same outlooks. I just want friends that are fun to be with, but fuck me in the ass and call me sally because nobody around here is fun. And now I’m here for the rest of the summer until I go all the fucking way to college. A whole 10 miles from home. Yipeeee!! Not. I know I’ll meet people there that I like. Hopefully.

I miss having my camera. Twas one of the things I truly loved

….Yes you!! Well, maybe it’s for my own pleasure, but I enjoy knowing that maybe somebody will read this. So today was a great day for several reasons. One being that I finally got my skateboard all ready to go for the season. I fucked up my bearings earlier this winter (wtf maine weather) and I couldn’t get one of them out of my wheel. Now I have some brand new bearings AND wheels. Everybody else was in a great mood today which always makes me happy. A lot of my happiness actually comes from other people being happy. It will make me happy if I can make somebody smile because that’s really all that I want. If somebody makes me smile then I will usually have the greatest fucking day and I’ll try to reproduce that feeling in others. Haha I want to impregnate others with a seed of happiness that will hopefully sprout into a beautiful smile. Btw you’re beautiful. All the time. Everyday. Whoever you are just know that I fucking love you. I hope that makes you smile because it sure made me. That’s my post for the day. I kinda like doing this writing thing. I think I might do it more often (: